It's perfect, Eddie thinks, as Cisco pulls away from him just a little, to catch his breath, and he can feel the heat of Cisco's breath against his mouth while they both breathe. Eddie's fingers are still in his hair, he savours the warm smooth strands as they slide against his skin, the way Cisco's warm smooth palms feel against his sides. And when the younger man looks at him with that tiny crooked smile, his dark eyes bright with warm affection, and he says 'I love you' so openly, so easily, Eddie's breath catches in his throat.
Lifting his hand, he strokes Cisco's hair behind his ear, he leans in and presses his forehead against his boyfriend's, his eyes sink half shut, and he feels like his heart is beating double-time in his chest. It takes a few long moments before he can speak past the lump in his throat, and when he does, it's a little choked.
It's just been a long time since he heard 'I love you' and even longer since he really believed it was true and without reservation.
It isn't until the pause after those words slipped out that it really registers what he said and then there's a skip in his heartbeat as he stays, frozen, leaning against Eddie, waiting for him to react. He doesn't even know what to expect, he just hopes it's not too soon or--
Oh.
Hearing it from Eddie, choked up and emotional in the moment, makes Cisco's heart melt. A wide grin spreads across his face and his hand goes up to cup Eddie's cheek. This is such a raw, open, perfect moment and he doesn't want to break it. Instead he just punctuates it with a soft kiss to Eddie's lips, warm and sweet.
It is perfect, he thinks. Curled up together, feeling safe, the contact of their bodies, the weight of Cisco against him, solid and secure and good...it's exactly how he would've wanted this moment if he'd planned for it. For it to be a moment where they're feeling so safe and comfortable.
Cisco's mouth tastes good, it's warm and sweet against his as he leans down to kiss his mouth, and Eddie's eyes sink shut, he responds in the same way. He pours his affection into it because Cisco, he knows, doesn't always take words at face value. Knows that sometimes Cisco needs to feel things in order to trust them.
Gently, while he keeps kissing, he strokes back Cisco's hair, he combs fingers through it, gentle, caressing motions, laden with affection.
The thing about Eddie is... he just knows Cisco so well. Because he took the time, he bothered to pay attention to the little stuff, and he just had this knack for always knowing what Cisco needed at any given moment. Eddie was attentive in ways people he'd dated in the past never were and it was kind of amazing. He understood that sometimes he needed more than just words to fully trust things and, God, he can feel the meaning and the honesty in his words in the way Eddie kisses him, the way he touches him.
He hums softly into Eddie's mouth as his fingers slide through his hair, his own fingers slide against the material of Eddie's shirt against his chest. Eventually, the kiss comes to a natural end and he keeps his forehead pressed to Eddie's own, still grinning. "You're amazing, Eddie."
There's something so vulnerable about Cisco, so fragile and open, and hopeful, especially in this moment, and that vulnerable, fragile, open, hopeful thing makes Eddie feel a surge of protectiveness. Makes him want to make Cisco feel safe and loved and warm and wanted. Wants to make him believe that he's worth being wanted.
When Cisco murmurs that he's amazing, those warm fingers tracing up and down the plane of his chest, Eddie laughs softly, eyes bright, and then rolls Cisco over onto his back. Rolls with him so he can pin the younger man underneath him and grin down at him, weight balanced on his elbows. Leaning down, he kisses Cisco's face, presses his lips against Cisco's lower lip, the corner of his mouth, the line of his jaw, his cheek.
And between kisses, he speaks, his voice soft and rough, "Mm...not as amazing...as you...Cisco Ramon...you're so gorgeous...you have a great mouth...and beautiful eyes...and your hair..."
Ducking his head, he nuzzles into Cisco's hair, inhales the scent of it.
Cisco lets out a soft, surprised noise that fades into a delighted laugh as Eddie flips their positions. He isn't sure what is going through Eddie's mind, but Cisco knows he never wants to see the light in his eyes dim. He makes a silent promise to do everything he can to keep that light shining.
His cheeks go red at the shower of compliments and kisses, but he's grinning the entire time. Usually, Cisco's pretty terrible at accepting compliments, he gets awkward about them because his personal view of himself is so twisted and glass-half-empty and low, largely thanks to the way other people in his life have treated him and his own anxieties convincing him that he was lesser than he is. But being with Eddie made him realize that maybe that self-perception was wrong. It was still hard sometimes, to simply accept the compliments like 'you're gorgeous' without the initial kneejerk reaction to deny it or scoff at the idea, but Eddie was kind of wearing some of that down, easing those beliefs away little bit by little bit.
And it's that realization, the one that says he actually is starting to believe some of this now, that has breath catching in his throat and his chest growing tight with emotion as Eddie leans down to nuzzle him. "I love you," he whispers again, voice tight, but still very clearly elated, an impossible to break smile on his lips.
It's something Eddie sees in Cisco, clear as day, probably obvious because he's been that person, the guy who doesn't think he deserves things. Sometimes he still is that guy. It was one of the things that drew him to Cisco, he thinks, seeing those signs, seeing those particular tendencies, and wanting so much to help ease them, help Cisco feel better about himself. To see what Eddie sees when he looks at him - a beautiful, intelligent, charming young man.
Eddie knows from experience that it will take work to convince Cisco that the bad things he believes about himself aren't all true, and that the good things Eddie says about him mostly are. But that's okay. It's work Eddie is willing to put in, enjoys putting in. Little by little, repetition by repetition, he's determined to make Cisco accept it, and if he can accept it, maybe he'll believe it.
So when Cisco doesn't argue back, just says he loves him, Eddie smiles at him, beaming bright and warm, "I love you back, Cisco Ramon."
Leaning down, he gently kisses Cisco's lower lip, "Mmmm, you know. I'm really glad it's so cold today."
Oh, God, he's never going to get tired of hearing that. Those words spread through him and he just can't stop grinning. He wonders if there's anything in the entire world better than this. He thinks probably not.
"Mmm..." he leans up into the kiss, fingers curling in the material of Eddie's shirt. "yeah...suddenly it's not so bad." He couldn't think of a better way to spend a way-too-cold day.
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Lifting his hand, he strokes Cisco's hair behind his ear, he leans in and presses his forehead against his boyfriend's, his eyes sink half shut, and he feels like his heart is beating double-time in his chest. It takes a few long moments before he can speak past the lump in his throat, and when he does, it's a little choked.
It's just been a long time since he heard 'I love you' and even longer since he really believed it was true and without reservation.
"I love you too, babe. So much."
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Oh.
Hearing it from Eddie, choked up and emotional in the moment, makes Cisco's heart melt. A wide grin spreads across his face and his hand goes up to cup Eddie's cheek. This is such a raw, open, perfect moment and he doesn't want to break it. Instead he just punctuates it with a soft kiss to Eddie's lips, warm and sweet.
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Cisco's mouth tastes good, it's warm and sweet against his as he leans down to kiss his mouth, and Eddie's eyes sink shut, he responds in the same way. He pours his affection into it because Cisco, he knows, doesn't always take words at face value. Knows that sometimes Cisco needs to feel things in order to trust them.
Gently, while he keeps kissing, he strokes back Cisco's hair, he combs fingers through it, gentle, caressing motions, laden with affection.
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He hums softly into Eddie's mouth as his fingers slide through his hair, his own fingers slide against the material of Eddie's shirt against his chest. Eventually, the kiss comes to a natural end and he keeps his forehead pressed to Eddie's own, still grinning. "You're amazing, Eddie."
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When Cisco murmurs that he's amazing, those warm fingers tracing up and down the plane of his chest, Eddie laughs softly, eyes bright, and then rolls Cisco over onto his back. Rolls with him so he can pin the younger man underneath him and grin down at him, weight balanced on his elbows. Leaning down, he kisses Cisco's face, presses his lips against Cisco's lower lip, the corner of his mouth, the line of his jaw, his cheek.
And between kisses, he speaks, his voice soft and rough, "Mm...not as amazing...as you...Cisco Ramon...you're so gorgeous...you have a great mouth...and beautiful eyes...and your hair..."
Ducking his head, he nuzzles into Cisco's hair, inhales the scent of it.
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His cheeks go red at the shower of compliments and kisses, but he's grinning the entire time. Usually, Cisco's pretty terrible at accepting compliments, he gets awkward about them because his personal view of himself is so twisted and glass-half-empty and low, largely thanks to the way other people in his life have treated him and his own anxieties convincing him that he was lesser than he is. But being with Eddie made him realize that maybe that self-perception was wrong. It was still hard sometimes, to simply accept the compliments like 'you're gorgeous' without the initial kneejerk reaction to deny it or scoff at the idea, but Eddie was kind of wearing some of that down, easing those beliefs away little bit by little bit.
And it's that realization, the one that says he actually is starting to believe some of this now, that has breath catching in his throat and his chest growing tight with emotion as Eddie leans down to nuzzle him. "I love you," he whispers again, voice tight, but still very clearly elated, an impossible to break smile on his lips.
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Eddie knows from experience that it will take work to convince Cisco that the bad things he believes about himself aren't all true, and that the good things Eddie says about him mostly are. But that's okay. It's work Eddie is willing to put in, enjoys putting in. Little by little, repetition by repetition, he's determined to make Cisco accept it, and if he can accept it, maybe he'll believe it.
So when Cisco doesn't argue back, just says he loves him, Eddie smiles at him, beaming bright and warm, "I love you back, Cisco Ramon."
Leaning down, he gently kisses Cisco's lower lip, "Mmmm, you know. I'm really glad it's so cold today."
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"Mmm..." he leans up into the kiss, fingers curling in the material of Eddie's shirt. "yeah...suddenly it's not so bad." He couldn't think of a better way to spend a way-too-cold day.